Happy Birthday to Me

My Birthday is today so I am going to share with you about how I feel about that. I was born two weeks before Christmas. My parents brought me home on Christmas Eve (in those days women were kept lying flat for ten days) I still have a doll that they gave me for that first Christmas. It's a cloth bodied goggle eyed doll.

For as long as I can remember my parents always told me there would be an extra present under the tree for me because of my birthday, yeah right! It doesn't take a rocket scientist to count gifts under the tree. I was always disappointed. Christmas was always hard at our home, my dad was military and there was four of us kids so money was tight.

The first year I was married, we had nothing, my husband gave me crayons and a coloring book. The next Christmas he was in Vietnam, by the next Christmas my marriage was in trouble. A year later I had three kids under two and a husband who had disappeared off the face of the earth.

Every year in the past forty-four years I have thought; 'next year will be different, next year I won't be alone, and next year I won't be broke.' I would fight depression all the way through November and December. I know as Christians we aren't suppose to be depressed, but sometimes that is hard to put in practice. It doesn't help when your parents pass on, a grandchild dies of SIDS, or when you lose a child.

This year should have been different for me. I have grown so much this last year. I thought I had it all together but as my manuscript(only the first chapter, no one will read the whole thing) was rejected again, I found I had a fight on my hands again. I started getting up at five each morning to pray in the Spirit and then the attacks began; a cold, the flu, a pulled muscle. How many know how hard it is to be up and positive when your in pain?

Today is my birthday and I know that the attacks are over. Not just because of the date but because God is good and His mercies endureth forever. I have come through it all victorious. I trust God with everything and in everything and I know that He has only the best in store for me.

Thanks everyone for all the Birthday Wishes and Prayers. God bless you all. I'll see you all on Monday.